And this marks the end of my term break...
Monday, February 22, 2010
Well.. i seriously think that i haven't put enough effort in my work this break.. totally not motivated.. And I'm all to blame.. the level of difficulty of my work totally leave me thinking if i made a right choice though i seriously think it's still all worth it! (For a hopefully brighter future and for removing all the possible regrets i may have later on in life if i haven't done it.).. But i really hope that classes can go a bit slower.. I really feel like i have too much in hand that i can't digest.. I always feel like suffocating with all the work, no matter how hard i try to understand one part, others just keep piling in..Oh wells... GAMBATTE! Since i have chosen it!
Another thing is, something i really do feel happy about although i guess some of my friends, even the best ones may doubt.. Maybe it's hard to believe that i really do feel happy about it? hahaha..
A good friend of mine (so happen that he is my ex-bf) is getting married soon. And after i heard that, 1st thing i had in mind was happy.. and then confused... and then after much thought, i really think i'm happy for him.
May sound a bit heartless but I really do feel i took him more as a very good friend and little brother than an other half. I always felt that he is among those that will wanna settle down early and lead a simple life.. I'm a greedy person.. I want more.. I want to experience work, i wanna see the world, i wanna know much more things and will definitely regret if i give up all these without trying hard enough. We were never meant to be, just that god played a tricked on us.. We both needed company then. Silly things that happen in life when young.. So this proofs that i WAS once young and silly! hahaha..
But in any case, I wish him to be happy in life always. Simple is not a bad thing. Just my small little hands wishes to grab on to many other things.. =)
